losing...

no matter how hard i try...
no matter how good i used to be..
no matter how best i could plans a strategy..
no matter how long 'my bullet past through the wall'...
winner always wins... loser keep on losing....

i knew that keep on fighting will be the best way to win...
but i keep continuing losing, and there is no hope of winning for me...

but now i realize...
i'm not losing by my effort or strategy...
it was me that make myself lose.
it was me, the person who having a lacks of communication sense, and classified as a boring monkey...
and it's not you who bring me down...
and it;s all about losing...
the reason of why 'gloomy black clouds arrive'....




losing of you..

RAMADHAN DATANG LAGI [CHAPTER 1-PUASA KANAK-KANAK]

assalamualaikum warohmatullahiwabarokatu.

alhamduliallah... seminggu dah kite pose kan kan kan??? pejam celik pejam celik dah seminggu kite pose.. alhamdulillah penuh ryte??? aku la.. korg aku xtaw la kan.. nak2 yg pmpn..... tetttttt...
hahah~! ape2 hal pon aku nak bercerite pasal pose aku mase zaman kanak2... hahhahaha~!
bosan jerk... tp sbb nak tunggu vid BATAK THE MOVIE nak siap di render so aku tulis r jugak... jam menunjukkan pokol 3:39am n sume dah tidow kecuali adam n aku... adam g mkn nagget sambil men ps2 kot... ok2 balek pade tajok kite awal2... ...

pada suatu hari...... tetttttt~! ko dah kenape???
ok2... zaman kanak2 aku sangat la aktif n kreatif n x boleh duduk diam.... aku mule start puase mase aku darjah 1... ala 6-7 thn la jugak kn... kire lambat r coz org len dah pose dlu sebelom aku.... tapi 1st time puase memang aku full 1 bulan... HEBAT X??? hebat kan kan kan...

jap... gigit naget adam ckit.....

kat mne aku tadi??? ha ok aku hebat... hahhahahah~! di sebab kan aku lahir bulan ramadhan so tu jadi pencetus semangat aku untuk puase full sebulan.. and x penah sekali pon aku try nak bukak pose or curik2 mkn... hahahha... hebat2..

pengalaman bangun sahur?? best2... bese r budak2 mule nak berpuase... mak aku kejot kan la pkol 5 mcm tu r kan... suh bebuke... aku pon terlampau la semangat... bgn basuh muke... (tapi mamai tu mamai la gak kan...) aku pon teros panjat kerusi nak dok kat meja mkn... n teros tgk lauk.... sambil tertanye2.. ape lauk sahur mak masak... euh.... silap..... aku teros tanye mak aku...
"mak~! kate suh makn sahur... mane sahur nye???"
mak aku jawap, "tu atas meje tu makanan untuk sahur la"
aku jawap, "yela mane lauk sahur nye??"
mak aku baru perasan yg otak budak2 aku nie masih lembab... hahahhahaZ~!
"sahur tu mkn pg sebelum subuh bukan nye mane makanan la dannn", balas mak aku..
owhh... wat muke muncung makan lauk ape tah mase tu x engat dah...
mati2 aku engat sahur tu jenis mknan... hahahah

dah tu aku pon puase r seharian~!
n malam tu mlm paling aku ske...
solat terawih!!!!
hahhhaha~! mule2 follow bapak aku jerk... lame2 dah ramai kawan aku g ngan kawan aku r nek basikal... haaaaa~!
pas terawih, kitorg pon lumber haram nek basikal keliling taman!! syokk woooo~! memang merempit la kitorg... sampai kan bus pon aku potong nak selang depan.. hahahhah~! kire siang aku jadi alim r puase... malam aku setan... oleh kerane aku nie cite2 dari kecik nak jadi budak nakal.. so aku pon dah jadi nakal... hahahah~! bende2 nakal yang aku penah wat mase bulan puase adalah seperti berikut:
(ayat skema la plak~)

-kacau budak2, kawan2 sembahyang terawih sampai kne marah ngan pak hamid gurkha
-men mercun mcm org nak berperang..
-bakar pokok kelape depan surau sebab mercun dah abes bakar, lighter ade lagi...
-tolak kete tok imam jauh dari tempat tok imam parking kete... (kuang ajow tol ko kn)
-tambat n ikat motor jemaah surau pastu lepak berdekatan ngan motor. bile die mengamok tnye sape punye kerje. dengan selamber aku jawap "xtaw r pakcik.. budak2 men tadi" aku tgk ijai dah menggeletar dah x taw nak jawap ape.. seb bek aku taw jawap kn?? hahahahha~!
-bergaduh rebut kueh n makanan tyme moreh!! hahahha~! bese aku la yg dapat lebih...
-lumber basikal pas abes solat 8 rakaat. tyme moreh masuk blek surau mkn... (taw2 jerk bile dah tyme moreh)
men mercun bakar kat umah yg ade anjing, rumah yg rase2 x puas hati n longkang2 supaye kawan terkne air longkang tu...
-memekak kejotkan org bgn sahur.. hahhahah~!

byk lagi sbnrnye... aku jerk yg xteringat dah.. tp tu antare yg top la aku penah wat.. hahahhaah~! tapi tu sume dlu... skunk dah x dah... heheheh~!

ok2 aku dah nak g sahur... jap lagi ade mase aku edit tambah lagi k... salam~!

RAMADHAN DATANG LAGI [INTRO]

yes!!! fasting month is coming back!!
bile cite pasal puase mesti seronok kn kn kn??? hahahha~! kali nie aku nak share cite pasal aku (Rasydan B. Salleh) dengan bulan yg aku suke that is bulan puase (Ramadhan Almubarak).. sebenarnye ramadhan n rasydan x boleh dipisahkan.. it is because, on 30/04/1989, the date that i was born is during fasting month... korg taw x fakta niee??haa... xtaw kn kn kn?? ok2 skarang korg dah tau ryte? yup... aku nie susah sgt nak di lahirkan, almaklum r anak lelaki 1st... so memang degil r... sian kat mak aku... kepale ku tersepit di celah tulang so makin lambat aku lahir... but after mak aku makan makanan yg ajaib... then freely aku ngan senang hati nye keluar n lahir ke dunia... yes!!! korang rase ape yg mak aku mkn?? jeng3~! teke r... aduh x nk teke lak korg nie....... jawapan nye.... LEMANG!!!! yeah it seem to be my fav food nowadays!! so that is my 2nd point of why ramadhan and rasydan can't be separate!!

ok.... then, after i born to this world.... "what will be my name?" is a question that must be answer by ROKIAH BT MD ISHA and SALLEH B ZAKARIA.... since my grandfather are still alive on that time, he prefer to give my name.... and he gave me... RAMADHAN B SALLEH. surprising ryte?? but my mother and father felt like the name are too heavy for me to bearing the responsibility (ala tanggungjawap berat la kot) so they prefer to changed it into RASYDAN B SALLEH (which i be honored to used it for my name)..
can you see the 4rd point of why Ramadhan and Rasydan cannot be separate? hahha~!

and from my 1st air breath until i got my own name... it is all about Ramadhan Al-Mubarak.. so no wonder this is my fav month, the month that i always miss, and i realy2 hope that i die on this month too... but hope panjang umur la... hehehe.. (xnk korg sedih time raye..)

ok thats all for this 1st nite of Ramadhan Al-Mubarak (11/08/2010)bersamaan.... 1 ramdhan brape hijrah ey?? alamak... 1427 ey?? aduh~! t aku carik k...
don't forget to follows my update dengan tajok:


RAMADHAN DATANG LAGI [CHAPTER 1-PUASA KANAK-KANAK],
RAMADHAN DATANG LAGI [CHAPTER 2-PUASA REMAJA TEKNIK],
RAMADHAN DATANG LAGI [PUASA UNIVERSITI],
RAMADHAN DATANG LAGI [FINAL CHAPTER PUASE DAH NAK RAYA]..

hopefully see u later.. insyaallah..

what is the meaning of LOVE??

what is the meaning of LOVE?
if u know it u better tell me...

life

'it's 0k if i 0nly can see u smiling fr0m behind rather then i'm watching u cries face-to-face'
-have u heard this statement bef0re?
-if u had, do u think that this statement bel0ngs t0 me?

'i saw an eagle flying with its 0wn pride flight, and i saw a cute hummingbird swiping its little cute wings flying ar0und lo0king 4 h0ney. I saw an 0ld man reading a newspaper inside a big luxury cars and i saw a happy y0ung m0ther sending her smiling y0ung daughter t0 the sch0ol. I saw a guy h0lding his girlfriend's hand and cr0ss the r0ad, and i saw a girl crying in the great and c0ld rains..
Then I st0p and thinking, i saw al0t 0f scenari0 ar0und me, but where did i st0od 4? I thinks and walk, thinks and walk until i meet a beautiful girl with a white dress. And she said t0 me, 'u r a watcher, just watch and u can feels what they feels ab0ut'
then i realize, i d0 have a feelings, everytime i watch s0me scene i d0 felt the same way with them. But when i thinks deeper, i f0und a new questi0n...

IF I D0 UNDERSTAND ALL THE CHARACTER'S FEELINGS, W0ULD THEY FEELS MY FEELING AB0UT THEM N DO THEY CAN UNDERSTAND MY FEELINGS T0o?'

if you....

if you r listened to me...

why did u been so rude to me?

if you r listened to me...

why did u always try to avoid me?

if you r listened to me...

why did u always ignore me?

if you r listened to me...

why did u always disagree with me?

if you r listened to me...

why did u always change a topic during our conversation?

if you r listened to me...

if i ever not to listened to u... what do u feel about ur self?

but it's ok if u r not listened to me.. becoz without listening to u... i felt so empty.. n if i doesn't listened to u and never been listened by u, i am not less then a deaf person..

p/s: y did i wrote this?? blog will be the 'person' who always listen to me, n never be rude to me, never try to avoid me, never ignore me, always agree with me, n yet... blog will never ever change a topic with me... but if u r not agree with me.. it's still from da bottom of my heart...