hard time.....

it's a tough task for me.....

i think i can do all this.... but in reality no i can't...

i'm a loser.....

what should i do?

what i did?

can i help myself just like i helping others people?

am i always be on my friends side during their hard time?

let look this into deeper..

q: during their hard time did they tell their story to me?

a: yes they did

q: did they ask me to give advice?

a: yes they did

q: if they sad, did i cheer them up?

a: i guess not....

q: will i always ask whether they are happy or not?

a: no if they are looking good n yes if they looks moody.

q: am i good in jokes?

a: no i don't.

q: am i a good listener?

a: not at all

q: am i good in giving advice?

a: not at all

q: did my presence comes with a smile and happiness?

a: not i didn't

q: am i a bad person?

a: yes u r Rasydan!

q: last question, how much people love to be around u? in scale of 1 to 10, 1 is the lowest (hate) and 10 will be the highest (love)

a: 4

The answer of the main question is: No u r not....

did u believe in "Hukum Karma"?

in terms of Hukum Karma, apa yg kite buat akan dibalas setimpal dengan ape yg kite dah buat.

in my case, yes, ape yg aku dah wat is ape yang aku dapat, ape yang aku kena itu yang aku buat.

so i don't put any blame to others....

ape yang aku nampak tu yang aku cakap. ape yang aku cakap tu yang aku nampak, bukan ape yang aku rasa. aku x carik salah orang laen aku just nampak ape salah orang laen. i had a very sensitives 'smells', i had a very sensitive instinct.... you will say no for the beginning and you will say yes at last, and did you know that will breaks my heart coz i trust you.

i gave you chances, and you keep testing me.

berani buat berani tanggung, xpecaye aku sudah.